So, tonight at 8pm I shall arrive at the maternity ward (as long as there is a bed for me!). I will be hooked up to a monitor to check the baby's heart rate and all being well, induction will begin. This involves a gel this evening, inserted you know where and then again 6-10 hours later. If that doesn't work then it will be discussed with me that induction is attempted again or there is the option of a Cesarean. If the second attempt fails, then it will definitely result in a c-section. This thought doesn't bother me too much. I think I'd prefer to labour 'normally' but I would rather my little boy be born safe and well and that's what really matters.
When induction was first mentioned to me about 5 weeks ago, I couldn't wait! I liked knowing that I wouldn't go overdue and I had a vague idea of when it was all going to happen. I went to see the consultant yesterday for the last minute checks and, even though I had to be firm and make them to keep to today's date (they wanted to wait until Sunday after violating me and declaring that my cervix is, so far, 'unfavoruable') I am now very, very nervous.
Today is the day I have waited for and planned for 9 months and even longer if you consider this baby was very much planned. Everything has been in preparation for this moment - to go into hospital and come out with a baby. But, as excited as I am, I am also very scared. Which I think is normal. I have never ever spent a night in hospital in my entire life. I will also be away from hubby overnight, as I very much doubt that I am going to go into labour with the first attempt at induction. I think, at the moment, that's what is scaring me most. Also, my life and indeed hubby's and my life, are about to change forever. We led in bed this morning and he said this would be the last time we would be alone for the next 18 years or so! Our lives are going to change, but, I hope, in the best way possible.
So, my kindle is charged along with my Iphone and I have a book and a few booklets about babies and breastfeeding etc, so that I can have a read and get prepared and I have something to try and take my mind off it, as I doubt I'll sleep very much during tonight. If I do go into labour, hubby will be allowed to come back obviously, but he is probably going to have to leave me about 10.30pm.
Everything's ready for the baby and so really now, it is just a case of being patient, hoping induction works and if not then well, what will be will be. I think or I hope that by Sunday/Monday I should have a baby! I cannot actually get my head around that idea. It's very strange.
So, thanks for reading my pregnancy journey the last six months, I hope I haven't bored you. And thanks to all those other bloggers who have helped me get through pregnancy, particularly Charlotte, at Write Like No One's Watching. Her blog has been invaluable! It's just comforting to be able to read that what I've been going through, I am not alone in and it's normal.
Today begins a new chapter of my life and I can't wait....
mummystartingout x
Oh how exciting!!! I'll be thinking of you over the next few days. It's natural to be anxious - I will never forget driving to hospital to have my son. Fear, excitement, thinking that the next time I'd be sleeping in my bed, I'd have an actual baby - overwhelming stuff! Enjoy (all the bits you can) and I'll be waiting with baited breath on the other side! Avril xx
ReplyDeleteThank you Avril. It's a very strange day so far... It's very overwhelming yes.
DeleteHopefully you'll hear our big announcement very soon! xx
Darling I am so proud of you! Your little boy is JUST GORGEOUS! xxx
ReplyDeleteAh thanks Charlotte! He's a star! Just wish he would sleep longer at night! xx
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